well I put it off, but it wasn't particularly easy as they were pretty insistent that we consider our options. It seems to be more of a logistical issue given that they expect to be busy by the end of the week and "don't want me to regret not having the induction earlier this week". Well as far as I am concerned, its surely difficult for them to plan these things anyway, and if I were to become a risk medically I assume I would go up the priority list than a "normal booked in" induction. So once I established that they were ok with me medically we left the hospital. That said, it still took a good 4 hours for them to do that, which i think may all be part of their master plan - in that you hang around for such a long time you end up thinking, well hell I may as well have the bloody induction and get on with it seeing as I am here.

I have to go in every day for monitoring which will drag, so can see that there is a chance I crack tomorrow. I've been having the odd cramp but truly nothing to write home about and nothing that makes me feel hopeful this will happen naturally any time soon. This is so annoying, if it was purely up to me I know I would want to keep waiting a good few more days, but its not just me, its Paul, my parents, his parents, everyone else waiting and waiting..... and I'm starting to feel seriously pressured.

The ongoing saga of a baby not willing to enter this world...

Ey up.
Well its 4am on Sunday 29th nov. Or to be more precise in terms of this baby 40 +12.
This means its eviction day in theory as 12 days late is the date they induce in Cheltenham. So I have to call the hospital in 5 hours time, however our intention is to refuse the induction unless there are medical problems to give me a few more days to try and do this without kicking it off unnaturally.

I'm not sure what this will mean, I think they will get me to go in to be checked over but then again they may just leave me to it for a few more days. Ideally I'd like at least till Tuesday, the only problem is poor Paul not knowing whether to go into work or just give it up for 2 weeks now, I think the uncertainity each day has really been doing his head in, - know how he feels!

now I have toothache and earache. I think there is every chance this is all psychosomatic and I am simply feeling sorry for myself :-(

baby its grim outside

I cannot blame this little one for not wanting to come out at the moment, its really grim out here with the wind and the rain. I'd stay in if I had the choice! Had some reflexology today which wasn't comfortable (it wasn't meant to be!) in the aim of encouraging some movement, but so far no impact. Went to the pub for tea and a glass of wine as consolation.

i take that back

Joe was spot on. thank goodness my faith is restored.

maybe its just me...

but nearly all the x-factor singers seemed to be singing flat this evening?

Exciting news!

No, not that I've had a baby..... I won something :-)
For the past month i've not been sleeping well, any reader of this blog will have worked this out from the random entries. So I have been filling my time by knitting, watching crap tv, playing on the internet and entering competitions online. and today i got an email to tell me I;d won a delia smith cookbook! Yay! small steps.....